 Saturday, December 31, 2005
first of all.. thank u to all who has helped me on this matter, nurulia, charmaine, michelle, ben.. many more. i really appreciate it. Apologies for getting you guys involved and being bombarded when it didnt have to happen to any one of you.
To wener and jeslyn, i have been keeping silent all these while.. just because i do not want to have any conflicts with you guys. Already, whatever jeslyn blogged a long time ago, 6dec or sumthing, i didnt bother. She announced to whoever reads her blog. that i owe ppl money. Ok, maybe i do. maybe i dont. even if i do, i returned it. like what charmaine said. And i am paying Wanlin soon. I am not a full time working adult. i do not print notes nor produce coins. i cannot do what i am not capable of. Like what i told myself, if i could pay. i would pay. why would i find excuses and stuff like tt? i am not hiding, not scared. because i do not owe anyone. ppl offered to pay for my stuff, i reject. they insist. its not borrowing. its help. from friends. from sisters. and if things turn out to be so ugly. if i had known, i would have declined any help or money.
Wener, its not as if you do not know me. if you think that i am the kind who owes yet do not wanto pay. than i dont think you bothered to be a friend of mine all those years. i confided in you in everything. Even the Michelle matter that happened 4 whole yrs ago. i dont blame you for bringing it up again. but was it necessary? you talk about talking things out. but did you and jeslyn even made an effort to contact me to talk things out? No.. you guys didnt. than how am i suppose to know? what issit that you all want? or believe that i should return?
whoever that tagged, whether in mine tagboard or char's tagboard. whether it was you guys or not, he/she should still be related to you guys. if not he/she wouldnt be bothered to tag. i dont understand how me 'owing' mk and wanlin money become such a big matter than it has to involve the both of you. If you guys sincerely don bother bout the matter. than y? blog bout it, write testimonials about it. y?
Jes, if you do not bother bout the matter. do not bother to rd my blog. than how did u know what i blogged when u shouted at me across the carpark one fine school day? if i shouted at you across the school carpark "yucks, asshole!" what would your natural reaction be? silence? i doubt so. who would take such false assaults?
anybody else who knows about this matter but do not know me, do not judge. because u do not know anything. those who knows me and hears about this matter. which is the true side of the matter? do you know? who is telling the truth? it cannot be determined through entries, tags, testimonials. whatever. God knows.
if i am guilty of anything, i would admit it. i would fear others knowing about it. but no, im not.
For sure i know, I value friendship more than i do for money.
from Regynna 2 u @ 6:46 PM
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