 Thursday, March 31, 2005
i wish i am deaf, blind, mute.. i wish i am a peck of dust.. i wish im dead.. :(
from Regynna 2 u @ 11:30 PM
life has been such a bore for me that it got me thinking of so many things.. and i realized that the many friends i have .. have all moved on but i stayed on.. waiting for sumthing to happen.. haha.. what the hell.. thank god my sister gave me a bk last yr.. which i didnt touch.. only till now.. when i think i really need it.. its when no one is by my side.. not even faizal..cause he seemed to have left me behind as well.. oh well.. ive learnt alot.. here is one quote..
The aim of life is to live, and to live means to be aware, joyously, drunkenly, serenely, divinely aware. - Henry Miller
all i need is to tell myself that i cannot depend on ly friends too much, i have depended on them for so long for my happiness, now when they seem to vanish.. i jus have to search within.. and find myself..
At the center of your being you have the answer, you know who you are and you know what you want. - Lao Tzu
i may feel very alone now.. but i think i would get back on my two feet soon. two very impt ppl walked out of my life.. but.. i dun think.. they are anymore impt.. take care all..
from Regynna 2 u @ 8:48 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
its all bout work.. n crap.. haha.. after so many days of searching.. n wasting my time.. i still havent got a job.. i did laz.. for bout 2 days. but.. yucks.. they wanto train us.. but yet dun tell the pay n its selling magnetic bed pads.. hrem.. all the best to those hired to work there.. yew.. refer to.. www.baller_princess_rox.blogspot.com for more details. haha..they made we wear office clothes! argh.. almost died.. but i bought a pair of flats which looks sweet in my opinion.. love it. haha..
ok.. today was posting results.. n i got poseted to np.. yeahz.. logistics mgmt.. i dun realli know whats tt.. but i guess i can learn.. though im still really keen on nautical studies. yeah.. i wanto learn bout ships.. i wanto.. sail n i wanto gain experience from all over the world. hahz.. n if i can.. join the navy. but.. nope.. tts jus not my choice to decide.. haiz.. anw.. its ok.. at least i know what courrse. some of my friends still duno.. n i hope they have a course soon.. many of my friend's are goin to jc.. pjc rather. i cant help thinking tt we're drifting. we definitely are. i am the kind tt cherish friendships to the extent tt i get paranoid for nth. while my friends dun.. know. yeah.. but i will get it over.. jus hafta keep myself busy. somtimes.. the first move has to be made by someone.. n not everybody wait for everybody else.
faizal is going to jjc.. n i hope he will focus there.. i bet he will.. haha.. he is one independent n smart guy.. somemore got soccer as an incentive for him.. way to go sayang! if anything happens.. we will still always be best buddies.. righty?? right..
what huh.. oh ya.. nurulia .. thanks for being a friend with me the last few weeks.. it seems we are always together.. hahz..
yeps.. fortunatley.. i have ventures.. if not i would be bored to death.. they haf many events n activities on.. hah.. n i haf many great pals there.. hu r lame.. well.. the fox scout grp is lame.. yeah.. erm.. like this thurs.. we have bbq with the zss scouts.. n 2nd april.. although i would very much wanto go.. avril lavigne's concert.. think i'll attend.. smss campfire.. haz.. yeah..we learn to built structures like the hour glass.. n i got roasted.. i tell u... im black now.. okie.. dark brown.. ahaz.. but i dun gif a damn.. i like the feeling after the strucutre is done.. haha.. sense of team acheivement..yah..
then besides tt, i laugh alot at work too.. pizza hut cuz.. ive got friends there too.. come to think bout it.. in the past.. 4 mths or so, i made friends from.. boon lay fact., promoter, MI, ventures and pizza hut.. haha.. then may got the poly peeps.. smooth.. hah.. kk la gtg..
regards to everyone out there.. whether poly or jc! study very hard.. but.. rmb.. health is ur onli wealth.. so take care!
from Regynna 2 u @ 8:34 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
hey, im back from jobweek camp!! cai er.. was right.. he said it would be off alot of fun.. n it absolutely was... i made many more friends... and am happy bout it.. think i would say tt we could click well with.. our female seniors.. tts harmony.. haha.. when females hate each other... i duno what to say.. er hem..
okie.. job week is all bout knockin doors n asking for jobs to du.. then exchange it for a fair amt of money.. well.. gerls r not allowed to du it.. so i dunr ealli know.. the tension or.. nervousness involved.. but i did experience going around. first day, i was attached.. to three little cadet scouts.. they are polite to a certain extend.. n naughty to a huge extend.. hah.. but they were cute la.. esp, matthew law..cute little guy with a mature sense of..em.. talkin ah.. he is so matured.. then i diidnt believe he was onli 10 yrs of age.. it was extensively.. energy draining.. all the walkin.. n trying to gather the boys like a herd of sheeps.. only these are super active ones..
the second day wasnt so bad.. i was attached to one malay guy.. anta.. he was very innocent n cute as well.. n it was shis first day.. he was kneen on winning a friend in their jobweek earnings.. and pushed himself alot.. i went with his flow.. when i asked if he was tired.. he said no.. and tt it was alot of fun. in the end he managed to beat the friend.. his frien.. gordon earned a total of.. $111 plus in two days and.. he $117 inn jus a day. boy was i proud of him.. hah.. of course.. i brought him to cashew .. where i knew tt not much scouts would think of combing.. haha.. yea!!
third day?? i learnd.. pioneerin and am proud to announce.. me diyanah, soopei n doreen.. built.. a tripod.. which we sat on.. took pics of it.. take from joanne then i publish in blog ya??! n we built a flag pole.. it was alot of fun and i love tyin knots.. onli.. the sun factor.. cuz i perspire easily.. haha.. then.. tts bout it.
yeps.. kk gtg now
tata.. take care all ventures!
from Regynna 2 u @ 10:56 PM
from Regynna 2 u @ 10:55 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
This is just me and my life again, I wonder what’s going to change in the future. I may not have everything now but I may have everything later, or I may have nothing. The future is not certain for everyone, which does not just leave me to the problem. I am not alone, nobody is ever alone. Even the rare or the seldom has companions, only too far away. I am neither a writer nor a poet, all I do is listen to the music and go where life takes me too, do I have much of a choice? I am just a teenager whose decisions are not mine to make. The older ones decide and shape my life, do I like that route? Or am I just following blindly? Do I have a choice to rebel? I do, but what will come out of it? Nothing comes out of everything, there is no reason to argue and cause the unnecessary tension. Internet is my past time but when parents do not foot the bill, your past time disappears. See how everything lies in their hands? I can take revenge so called, but I am not a mean lady. I show gratitude to them for shaping my life till the way I am today. The way I understand how they are shaping the rest of my life. The way I understand that an F9 to a B3 grade for additional mathematics is a little mini achievement for me.
Hmm.. so formal. Well, I actually want to blog but my internet has no connection cause my mother did not pay the bill. But it doesn’t really matter. Alright, don’t ask me where I am going, going to poly. Singapore poly, taking nautical studies for DAE and business administration as first choice for JAE. Ok, gtg now.
from Regynna 2 u @ 8:38 PM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
its been a long long time since i blogged.. but hu cares.. i wanto say i was busy.. but i wasnt exactly.. i was pretty frustrated with all the JAE and stuff.. i was kinda busy.. howeva, i didnt go to MI for tt period of time.. i dun haf to anymore.. cuz.. im going to a poly anyway.. yaya..
erh.. n whats more.. hrm.. erm.. i erh.. haf job week camp this wkend all thru till tuesday.. then ya.. lr..ventures keep me busy haha.. at leat i dun haf to laze and become wider.. u know what i mean.. ok u dun.. but thats better.. im also lookin for a better paying job.. pizza is not exactly the ideal one.. but i'll cont'd in pizza hut.. hahha..cuz ive got pretty good friends there.. yeah..
i hope poly.. gifs me a fufillin life.. im pretty upset that i wont get to taste or experience the life in jc.. and hearing my friends talk bout their life's in jc.. i am a little distress.. but all is not lost.. i guess.. its jus another kind of route for me. and its how i look at it.. its my point of view that counts.. a shabby lookin hut might look realli nice for a beggar.. but jus.. a shabby hut for the rich.. know what im trying to say?
heez... im trying to make sense.. ha.. oke la.. think i gtg now.. take care all..
from Regynna 2 u @ 10:45 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
i meant to say hello la.. but nvm im in a rush.. in yina house.. cannot use her com. so long mah right!! huge dilemma right now.. im not proud of my results la.. onli 20 pts.. but.. im happy i could get b3's for my maths!! yea!! now.. being at the borderline.. i haf no iddie to go to jc or.. poly. so plz help me out.. if u know what i can du..
also i am no longer single.. ahha.. i mean.. we're back.. so.okie.. congrats to those low pointers and cheer up for the high ones.. there are many choices out there.. yeps. take care all!! bye!
from Regynna 2 u @ 8:32 PM
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