 Tuesday, November 29, 2005
everybody seem so tired these days, i think its the hectic projects and tutorials due and how strict the teachers are this term, we hardly have time for ourselves. and than, when we finally have free time, we're too tired, we sleep. thus.. haa.
i lost zhengkai's thumbdrive, ops.. and yah.. i will take the responsibilty, dun worrie. yah, sorry im late today for project work. sometimes, i dun know whether i will wake up late or not. Do we stop such things? also.. too bad, i dun wanto be your friend anymore i think your wasting my time. and, and leeches are not welcomed in my life. And dun make use of me, stop askin me to go wherever and whenever, im not obliged to do so..
from Regynna 2 u @ 3:14 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
im too tired.. to say anything.. my heart just feels very heavy.. haiz..
from Regynna 2 u @ 2:48 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
okei.. haven blogged for such a long time. its already tuesday today.. hrm.. wanto tok bout last sat. i went to Shooting Stars showcase!! and and.. i saw all of them.. INCLUDING TAUFIK!! haha.. yah. oke, reason why im super excited.. its cuz.. hha, he is super duperly handsome.. and.. i just sense then gentlemanly aura around him. haha.. and Sly is not that bad after all, jus that he like to pose for pics. haha.. god.. and olinda is super slim now. and she is very humorous. haha.. thought i was really sitting in a very gangkor positiong(wearing a skirt n on the floor), i felt very very comfortable. they joked around and talked jus like the old 4e1. hah.. suaning each other n stuff. haha.. it was one nostalgic experience. yehs.. but.. WHAT A PITY!!! i didnt bring any camera device!! im was so devestated and happy at the same time... so was quite confused.. i knew how to sing the songs and stuff. ok, i sound like a crazy fan.. but im not. haha.. anyway, i was wearing.. sumthing i swore i wouldnt wear.. i hope it wasnt that bad. haha.. FOR FAIZAL. hee.. and.. also, it was in a CLUB MOMO, so i kinda knew how that club looked like. nice, intimate, dark.. and i couldnt c where there were no lights. haha.. yahs, jus loved the whole event. partly cuz, faizal, taufik, club, music, air-con and laughter were all there!! MUACKS!!.... hee. okok.. STOP IT
haha. whats more.. hrm, i went to take neos with zal.. ate yoshinoya.. haha.. and loved the time spent with him.. haha.. it was once.. in a very few times i could be with him at night. haha.. ok whatelse..
Erhm, been very slackin with work, one reason being, my manager put me a few days onlie lorh.. haha.. and im so BROKE now haha.. i jus buy alot of food to eat. if i actually keep trrack.. i dun take neos, nor buy stuff.. for myself no more. i jus gorge myself with food. so, plz jus imagine.. how FAT i am now. hehehe.. ok, forget it, dun imagine, im jus FAT.
watched the show I LOVE SAM on sat night.. it was so sad. haha.. dakota fanning act one, always make me cry! haha.. she act good mah. got future. haha. in hollywoood.. way to go! hrm, well its bout this man. who is not very abled.. but he is a supser nice father. and he got a daughter.. through i duno what, she is separated from her father at the age of 8. cuz he had the IQ onli of a 7 yr old. hah, but i personally think that he is a very gd father. one better than those hu have... the IQ of a 100 yr old okie.. hah.. he took care of her when he was only holding a low paying job, bought diapers. and stuff. brought her to sch. and realli took care of her. but they had to take her away from him. they loved each other ALOT. oke. too engrossed ah.. haha. haha.. he had a lawyer fight for him. probono.. or sumthing. she very STRESS one.. than very hectic la her life. she fiannly divorced her husband. i think he was having an affair. than, she helped the helpless father lah.. until i think they become couple leh. haha.. oh god. in the end, he got her back, yeah!!!
erh. sunday i basically spent time with family lah. and i finally got mu LAVENDER PINK SAMSUNG E530C!! haa.. ive waited a long time man. hah. but the thingy is huh, i duno how to use bluetooth n stuff. how to d/l stuff and all. so im quite a nooby with my hp. haha.. so mountain tortoise le me. ERGH. well, i hate IT. so its understandable. yikes.. aha.. know what, im in sch now. haha... having lecture. but i think the walls are listening to him. n thats it. haha.. the rest r fully engrossed with their lappys.
hrm.. whats more... yesterday i had sch, but i pon stats. cuz.. i had this stupid pain in my tummy.. i couldnt stand straight. meant to finish my COIP working files, but it was futile. the pain kinda took over, n i was so concentrating on jus the pain. i couldnt do anything else, decided to skip stats. and meeting at night and stuff. i wanted to c a doc. faizal came down to bukit timah plaze. and i met him at the bank. hrm.. i walked down with karine and soon enough, my pain went away. i changed my mind bout the doc, but still firm with skippin lessons.. (typical), haha. so yah.. i went back for meeting though. there was suppose to be sign language clz today. haha.. but it was somehow, not starting today. so went early for meeting. and started to interact and colour cards. haha.. yeahs! fun. haven done colouring for years i must say. stayed till bout 9pm. and than i went home. haha.. talked to many ppl today lah. so many problems. but.. life. cannot be explained.
okoke.. nothing else already. blogged damn long. haha.. nvm lah. tired!!!! sianz... tmr going to KBOX with weifeng and gang.. haa.. and.. morning breakfast with BABY!! haha.. and night time go jalan raya with filz, fatin n gang. haha.. cya!
from Regynna 2 u @ 10:56 AM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
darn that stupid pop up blocker, and now i cant out any photos.. cuz the page is blocked. stupid, sometimes, it just sucks. ergh.. nvm..
Haiz, anyway.. i duno what.. im jus feeling very disappointed.. ****ed up.. haiz. i know.. i think its just the fact that im stuck in the libray with nothing to do and listening to soapy ballads. its jus so demoralizing. i thought today i could somehow see him for awhile. but while looking forward to it, i was so shockingly dampen when he said he was too tired to meet me. i understand but, it was only for awhile? now, even though he said he couldd meet me if i wanted to, i totally have got no mood already. i mean, u already said that ur tired, and u made urself clear that u didnt want to meet, so you dont have to ask me whether i wanto see u or not, or whether i am sad. so what? ur still tired. if u meant to wanto sincerely meet me, even for that short period, u wouldnt even mention that ur tired. and its after all the fun u had, ur tellin me now that ur tired. DUH. when i was like almost half dead, and u asked me if i was ok. i didnt reply, cuz i didnt have the energy too.. u didnt even send another msg of concern. and u said.. i didnt reply, and that uu forgot that i was not well. wau, thanks alot. ur concern is so appreciated. its jus so like you to make me so pissed off and pretend that nothing ever happened. I AM STILL ILL.. and ur not even asking. how many other boys who are not so close to me.. at least asked.. twice if i was ok and ask me to rest. sometimes, i just duno who are you. the next time you wanto have fun, jus forget u have a girlfriend la ok. dammit.
i didnt make it to sch yesterday due to very severe pains and i think i missed out on quite alot of stuff. im pretty stressed up right now. cuz i duno where to start from.. what to start from. and how to start. its like.. im jus pinned down by so many things and i duno how to start off. i have got no ability to even start. bleah.. whatever. haiz..
okay lah, think i got to go. tc.
from Regynna 2 u @ 11:32 AM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
lazy sunday afternoon, feelin realli full aha.. jus met up with yina and darius for a meal at pizza hut, greenridge.. amir came down for a little chat too.. and fatin was working. haha.. thats why, kind off a mini gathering for sec sch classmates. and so so hilarious, what ever mood i had, it kinda jus vanished.. i think im missing my sec sch life alot more. where the ppl are alot less political and backstabbing. where they are more genuinely concerned and caring, where they r true friends. and not all the opposites. bleha..
im watching an indain show now.. haha.. im suppose to have alot of hw to du but im not doing that. hrm.. im so LAZY!!!!! haiyoh..
anyway, yesterday was also yifang's birthday. and she probably had a great time. it was a big party lah, also her sister's birthday. haha.. and the function room was so cold! i almost became ice.. but oh well.. hhaha.. i was outside most of the time.. and ruthless was there. i wanted to mingle around, but than, it was quite awkward. u know, not seeing each other for so long and stuff. only when going home that time did we start talking, than i had to go. oh well... on the 26nov there will be a bbq. haha.. plz be reminded! its 26 not 27 nov.. time n place ask engpeng or wantian..!!
ok, i got to go now.. bb!
from Regynna 2 u @ 3:39 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
guess this is jus one of the many times when im feeling down so such a long time, like i said before, when something not nice happens, everything else bad will follow behind. and that is the way life goes.. and it sucks. but i know ivan said, life does sucks, but no matter we must live it up to the fullest. even, if we are experiencing a down turn, just got to move on. that kind of thingy.
now im in class, having enterprise information system, try as i might, i still du not know a nut about this module. im merely followeing the instructions he gif. im in a horrible mood today. feeling very tired, and maybe im just falling sick. and i thinking of gifing japanese up. its this evening, i hate this teacher alot. haiz. i think i am gg to pon, in such a foul mood today. cannot last until.. 8pm, bleah. sumtimes, i also duno what is my EIS teacher doin leh. so irritating lah he, always like tt. " blablha, u du this n that.. blablha.. " then he ask us to do.. how to know? my music make soft soft also i dun understand. i dun wan like last semester, last minute than chiong everything lor. later get such a low GPA again. i think i jump down. haiz..
anyway, i think i gg now.. nothing to blog liaoz.
from Regynna 2 u @ 10:11 AM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
im here in clz, java progamming, but i think my eye lids are trying toi be funny. they are becoming so damn heavy, i think i cannot hold it any longer.. even now as i type, i feel like i am gg to bang my head hard on the table jus a bout anytime man.. hrm..
hrm, anw, announcement to make.. 27thNov 05 a Sunday, 4e1'04 peeps plz take note there will be gathering at East Coast Park, 10am at eunos station. there will be a bbq, catch up session and own games. ha, so plz get back to Fel, Nurulia or me, to confirm attendance. i will be sendin out an email lah, so dun worrie lah. haha.
hrm, things are okay now. i think tt ive relaxed, not impulse anymore.. hrm.. oke, blog later, i gtg slp.. tired!
from Regynna 2 u @ 1:42 PM
Monday, November 07, 2005
i wish some ppl jus would think bout the welfare of other ppl and not onli themselves, cause such ppl would come to no gd end in the workin world, jus a few years later. bleah.. jus WAKE UP! and plz do not.. of all ppl.. make me an enemy!
oki, ive a got a test tmr.. so i better go off not,jus wanting to make my point.. or i'll nt slp peacefully tonight..
take care!
from Regynna 2 u @ 11:31 PM
i am so FREAKING FED up with the computer, as much as i like a laptop, i hate to du stuff.. with it!!! like now, its COIP lessons, and im asked to edit so many things. microsoft word, and i duno what to du!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ERGH. i knew, i knew i wouldn like this kind of business thingy and IT stuff.. i am not deem fit for this coursE! i like food and beverage, tourism, early childhood! why must i bee in a course i do not like? its so forcful to come to sch, why must i drag my feet to sch and not look forward to coming to sch? why must i always take the wrong route? in sec sch, now even in tertiary level. i take the wrong path.i think i should bang the wall and die.. and the project work le? what the hell is geocaching.. now that i have so many problems.. i still am working.. and fanning over unecessary stuff! haiyoh, when u get a downfall.. every bad stuff will come together! u get an unlucky waterfall.. what am i talking about??? ok, nvm!
all i wan now.. is peace and quiet. nice friends and my bf! but now, i only have my BF! im so angry lah, with myself and everything!
from Regynna 2 u @ 12:20 PM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
hmm, life is boring and i dun have a sense of direction, i have no idea where to head. i am jus wandering life when it comes, i think that i am living such an awful like.
work is becoming very boring to me, it is a hindrance i feel now. although i am earning, i am beginning to think that its actually useless for me. i do not need all thhat money, i jus feel belonged to pizza hut and have nothing to do. or so i think. in ngee ann, i have so much to catch up on. and my japanese, they jus wont let me change the date and waste my whole wednesday! y r the sch clerks so lazy? we pay so much for the course and they jus say my reason is invalid.. i should have jus told her.. "i hate the stupid teacher who speaks jap throughout the whole lesson, forgetting that we are english speakers, she jus thinks that she is so fluent in her language she jus spews it all over! she is not even teaching, she is talkin to herself! how the fuck am i gg to understand if she speaks so fast and dun spare a thought for her students? and i wait.. 3 whole hrs jus to hear her talking to herself? i am failin japanese for sure!" maybe then, she will change my clz for me and also, i might say a thing or two to her.. "ur a very lazy clerk, bitch.." haiz.. i am so upset with my life.. at a stupid time like this, i go to sch, come to work and go home, i slp.. i go to sch again and work again.
ppl from pizza hut, is their care genuine? or is it jus so fake? i dun feel anything.. ive been workin so long.. haiz. and i feel so lost now, i jus feel very lost. even ppl from clz, i duno how real are they? i really wish i can change a course, go to another. but, i know that i have got no choice..
nothing is gg to help me find direction.. i think i am going the wrong way. my heart is all scrunched up, everytime i think how useless my life is right now, i feel like screaming so damn loudly.. i wanto let it all out. but, i cant. i havent seen faizal for so long.. nor can i really talk to him. sometimess, being single.. would help, so i wouldnt think "how come ive got a bf, but it seems like i dun have one.. " i cannot blame him nor myself, its no one's fault.. we have been together so long, it was much easier last time being in the same sch, the time we have together now, is so little.. haiz.. and i keep thinking that i dun have a bf.. it doesnt bother me when we dun meet up so much, but when i know i cannot see him, i will jus be so frustrated..
burnt my stupid arm today, yunlong accidentally hit me.. and tt lim ask long to help me put the cream.. i feel like slapping him! haiz.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why.. haiz..
i jus feel so damn LOST! i dont know what to do.. should i quit my job and set on studyin all the way! but, i know i wont have enought to spend on.. i know. yet, something about pizza hut is making me wanto quit, and its not the pay.. haiz.
and SCHOOL! i duno about statistics and physcis, lecturer keep saying that its ez its ez! its not! is it cause i dun listen in clz, or im a total failure.. or i woork too much and hhave no time for revision? i always get too tired and dun have the energy to cont'd.. im FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel so ANGRY inside.. i feel so much like shouting out all the problems i have kept inside for so long.. gtg now.
take care..
from Regynna 2 u @ 10:23 PM
Saturday, November 05, 2005
school was okay this morning, i was on time and stuff.. and everything was alright. haiz.than there was this Java class.. i could do it but its jus copying whatever teacher has on the board, there.. i was a little frus with the fact that i had to redo, cuz it has too many errors. nvm... after tt it was work, wored from 4. till bout 11pm, i am of course cranky n tired and full of no life.. im very irritated and annoyed that i have to work everytime after sch.. and basically lead.. NO LIFE.. how extremely broring is tt? its not that im forced to work, but hu else is gg to give me the money to spend when i need it? im not some rich tai tai's daughter.. if not i wouldnt be complaining her in my blog. ergh.. im angry.
after work, i come back only to hear the preachings of my parents, they nag like record players.. and they jus keep drowning your ear drums with continous naggiings. how annoying! all about roccky again , do i have the time to bathe to dog all the time? whats more, when they were making noise, i was hangin the darn clotes, the very clothes my sisters cant be bothered washing,and having me end up washing them .. erh.. and hang. yikes! i hate it man.. haiz..
Think i better go now, its geeting late, im stil out side my house usin the net connection and fighting my very heavy eye lids. i still am not done with COIP. haiz, im dead for this sem..
Gtg now, bb
from Regynna 2 u @ 12:33 AM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
listening to taufik's 1st, i dun realli like it, but its quite touching song, hrm.. in clz now, with mr lee heng tat, and he is extremely boring, like talkin to the wall, or himself.. boring!!
bleah, jus the 2nd day of sch and there is so much shit to do, god! i duno to feel happy that imm finally kept occupied or to jus sit and lament. haiyoh.. curse and swear.. Eals lah, eis la.. coip la.. and what more. there are assignments like.. applied stats.. hrmm..
now, sly's song is playing. haha. 1st time in the whole yr, du i think that he is singing better than taufik le..
actualli, i duno what to think of ppl la, its hazarderous enough jus handling myself. when i hear what ppl say bout other ppl, i prefer keepin quiet. sometimes, i comment a thing or two. i duno what to feel. haha, last two days when i come to sch, i feel like a compplete nerd, having to bring so many things and carrying them around. my hair all messed up and stuff, than my bag broke. what kind if first day is tt? the onli real thing that cheered me up is.. the steamboat at marina with the rest.. they kinda cheered me up.. duno which person say tt i look left out.. i think melissa.. haha.. dun worrie, i think i can be alone.. i dun nd ppl by my side all the time as long as i know they are around, i am fine. haha, furthermore, i dun nd those two ppl, thailand was just to stay happy and avoid trouble. i am fine without them..
im gg to have japanese later right.. i kinda forget everything liao leh. haha.. im so gg to die la. but nvm, later i have a little time. so i can revise..
hrm, i kinda feel better now, talkin to bingshun, my dear cousin. hu understands the frustrations of a 17 yr old.. haha. cuz he is also 17 ma.. haha.. u better msg me after ur o's ah.. if not i sure kill u..
aiyah.. of all the haha's u see in my entry, none of them realli mean haha.. get what i mean?? siao la.. i am quite upset that i always cannot meet Faizal, sometimes there r jus too much things to say, n when dun say out to him.. when i wanto, i will nv get the chance again. cuz i dun feel like saying anymore. u know ? well.. hrm..
lessons finish liaoz.. gtg.. Bing! y still reading!! go study!!
from Regynna 2 u @ 2:21 PM
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
ha, funnily today is deepavali.. i didnt watch tv the whole day.. but now im pretty hooked up with a hindu show on tv. haha.. also, i jus found out tt lessons tmr are onli for 2 hrs. and it starts at 1pm. i have japanese at 6pm, what the hell.. haha.. but gift of xmas meeting at 5pm. so.. yah.. busy like not busy haiyoh..
anyway, my mother's friends came here today at 2pm, they started playin mahjong all the way till 10. of course, with dinner break la. haha.. my mother n i was busy preparin that 8 dishes dinner. haha.. it wasnt chinese.. more nonya kind of dinner haha.. it was delicious!! i think i gain alot of weight olready, with all that calories. haha.. while nurulia sheds some kilos at the camp.. im gaining.. tiao.. haha..
suppose to work tmr at 4-10, but i have japanese till 8pm. haha, sadd? no la, i quite tired... thanks to maisarah who replace me..Thank you!! after jap, i have venture meeting.. yah.. haiyah.. not busy la.
im clueless as to what i am studyin this semester, all the subjects i seriously.. "adore",, like physics, computer stuff la.. and what not. haiyoh.. im gg to die!!
hrm, i duno, there is a very heavy feelin in my heart.. and i simply cant figure out whats the feeling about. but, im quite.. affectedd. bleah.. so annoying..
from Regynna 2 u @ 12:08 PM
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